Fucked Up

It's 2 am in the morning, but I can not fall asleep. My feeling is so weird and uncomfortable...I am lost...really lost...Where is the happy me? Why I am overthinking, overthinking, overthinking again. I hate it. I hate myself for that.

I should never do that...should never...I feel I lost a friend who I really like...T_T...I am a stupid loser...from the moment back from Gent, I told myself dont expect too much, close your heart and be a bitch...But I can't...Why it's so diffcult to be an human being??? Why I am always so soft???

Sorry...For me, for him, for other people who care about me...

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