Loser

After Saturday, I really don't know who I am anymore. I thought I understood myself, but I don't. I am such a loser. I just can not get rid of that moment from my head, it's like a film, play and play again...it keeps torturing me. My heart is just like Tofu, it's broken to thousands pieces...

I really want be happy instead of sad. Even I tried to get a new hair color, it still doesn't help. Never noticed I will like him that much...but I do...I really do...It's so easy to say forget, but it's so hard to do. Yesterday when I met my friends, everybody told me I looked so sad and fucked up.

What Can I do? God, please help me!!!